Well I think that it is time that I get back to blogging. In order for me to do so I feel that I need to do this post.
On November 8,2010 We lost our baby girl at 18 wks 6 days. It was something that I never thought would happen to us,and something I never thought I would have the strength to live through. We were so excited to be parents after a year of trying. At 17 weeks I starting to cramp severely. I went to the emergency room to make sure everything was okay. They did an ultrasound and the baby was doing just fine, so they sent me home. The next day I was still in a lot of pain and so my doctor had me go back to the hospital. They were thinking that there might be a problem with my appendix. They admitted me to the hospital. Once they moved me to my room I started to bleed. My doctor had them move over to labor and delivery and he prepared me for the worst. I spent the night being watched over by very sweet nurses. Our prayers had been answered that morning. The bleeding had stopped and the cramping was gone. The baby was doing good. I was sent home and told to keep calm for a few days. Everything was going well for a week and half or so.
On November 7th as I got out of the car to walk into church I felt a rush of fluid come out of me. I new immediately that my water had broken. We hurried home and called the on call doctor and they had me come into the office. The tested the fluid and sure enough my water had broke. They had us go to the hospital to have an ultrasound. When they tech started the ultrasound I new something did not look right. You could barely see the baby since all the fluid was gone. However she still had a very strong heartbeat. That was the last time we got to hear it. They had me go home and wait till Monday morning.
On Monday November 8th the induced me, it took only a few hours until I delivered little Ruby. Jeff and I did not know what to expect. What would she look being that small? She was perfect to put it simply. She had the tiniest fingers and toes. She had everything it was just all very small. The nurses wrapped her up and gave her to me just like they do with all the other babies. Share Parents came to the hospital after the delivery. They did castings of Ruby's hands and feet. They also did her hand prints and footprints. They were very sweet ladies. I am glad we have those things to remember her with. Jeff and I were amazed at the peace we felt that night as we held our little girl that we had lost. I know that our Heavenly Father was there to comfort us in our worst time of grieve.
We are so thankful to our families and love and support they showed us. We honestly couldn't have gotten through it with out them. My doctor was a wonderful support as well, and all the kind nurses. I am so thankful to my heavenly father to have blessed me with such a wonderful husband. He was so loving and patient with me through the very rough months that followed.
Ruby will forever be in our hearts. Loosing her brought us immense grieve, but also brought us closer together as a couple. I truly believe that Heavenly father had bigger plans for a little girl,and one day we will know why we had to go through this. Currently I think she is watching out for her little sibling that is due December 27th! We love you little Ruby and we will meet again someday.
